It's not fun when your past constantly haunts you. Lingering on your shoulders, whispering in your ear reminding you of what you once were. How angry I once was. How indecisive I was. How I never deserve a lot of things I have in life. How I have missed so many oppurtunities in life.
But the good thing about that is there's always the present, and the future! Totes should be looking forward to the future with God as a guide, and not so much as my self intuition. Not like its helped much anyways. I know as long as I aim for what is good, what is wholesome and what is pleasing in Gods eyes I can't really go wrong. Or can I?
Been 2 weeks since that situation went down. I'm feeling much numb-er, a hint of annoyance, and still weeellll i'll admit it, I have hints of regrets lingering internally. But it should fade away sooner or later. Gotten a lot of things done so far this holiday, I have been already excluded from the usual yamchas, been excluded from holiday plans, its fun to see who actually misses my company and who doesn't at all.
I suppose I can get very dull after awhile. HA. Anyways had a chat with Aman today about his 4 door MK1 escort. He plans to S-C-R-A-P it which reaaaally got me getting all twitchy. The ford is still in pretty decent shape! Fast forwarding to the conclusion though, I cheekily asked him whether I can have the car for free. Like, literally.
Guess what? He agreed. FREE ESCORT BITCHES. But whether it actually happens that remains to be seen.
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