And people... and cultures... and the way people think. Well today on Facebook I so happened to look at Melissa Soon's update saying that how old A certain song was that she heard during standard 6. Suddenly, WOW it just hit me like nothing (Cause IF something were to really hit me, I wouldnt be typing herreeeeeee :D) that I SHOULD be in form 5, but im in form 4 and its exactly 5 YEARS since I left standard 6.
Thats 365 x 5= 1825 days, 43800 hours and 2628000 minutes! (I think, my math is HORRIBLE now. I used my phone caculator! Muahaha) In that time I have:
1. Went for college for a year, learnt how its like there.
2. Worked in 2 different workshops that both specialise in diffrent sorts of repairing cars.
3. Driven over 20 different vehicles, I cant remember them all. And remember, im only turning 17 in September! Now you'll understand why im yawning if youre so proud of driving a wira out of your gate onto the street :P.
4. Gone through form 1,2,3 and now doing 4.
5. Cycled uncountable hours.
6. Gotten lectured so many times, every time I get another lecture theres no new topics nowadays.
7. Gotten into an accident. (Not my fault! Some dimwit rear-ended the nissan)
8. Seen the transformation of the Nissan bloom from an accident victim with mismatched paint to the current state, lovely.
9. Had a HORRIBLE valentines day.
10. Had an awesome 16th birthday!
11. Played uncountable hours on the XBOX 360, untill it broke. Its still broken.
12. Seen the house transform in many ways.
13. Seen myself change in terms of everything. Maturity, the way I talk, my language, punctuations etc. etc. Im not so hyper now!
14. Watched at LEAST 60+ movies in this timespan in the cinemas. I used to practically do this every day I had nothing to do.
15. Gone for tuitons, camps, lectures that I made so much friends that i'll hate to lose.
16. Lost ALOT of weight, then put it back on. Well but at least im taller and have more muscles now, heheeee :).
17. Spent hundreds of ringgit on shopping.
18. Learned to appreciate life. Success isn't defined how much money you make. It CAN define it, but I rather define success as HOW you make the money and how it MAKES other people happy along with you. Theres NOTHING better than succeding and EVERYONE is happy for you instead of just being rich by being a rich backstabbing trash talking showoff prick.
19. Learned that even in a park, with 3 friends, no shoes, a rugby ball and in school uniform you can have fun! (Im aching from that now, and breathless too. Guess I gotta start jogging! Muahaha :D)
20. Tried things I shouldnt, but I guess it builds characther. Everyone says to be mature you have to make WRONG desicions, because you LEARN from your mistakes. Amen?
21. Go-Karting. I want to GO but i've only been there once.
22. Spun a Mazda 323 with blown suspension, fun, but I should have controlled it :/.
23. Dreamt about so many cars that I WANT to mod but have no money to. This includes from your everyday Proton Saga, Honda Civic EG6 to my weird but wonderfull Nissan AD Resort and not forgetting, a short term dream car of mine a mistubishi cordia :).
24. Learned how to play drums, though im kind of rusty now haha.
25. Learning how to stop swearing entirely! I guess I need close REAL christian friends that can keep me on track, but its rare that you find both fun + christian friends nowadays.
26. Washed a rolls-royce silver spur. Oh, I even DROVE IT. This is an experience im going to my deathbed with :).
27. Finished Modern Warfare in a DAY. Its nothing special, but remember, im a car geek. For some reason that weekend I just had the urge to finish the game, ahaha :D!
28. Getting to own a DSLR camera and enjoy photography. Though now its broken...
29. Created this blog!
30. Made enemies and friends. Happy though, I dont know my enemies that much, ahaha :D. Must be in hiding or something.
31. Been to a drift event.
32. Heard mad mikes 4-rotor RX7 at that drift event. I can die in peace now! Ahaha XD
33. Learned how to cook! Tasty, thats up to you :). I'd say myself its pretty tasty but easy to get 'jelak' of.
34. Went for paintball. SHIZZ man, it should be called PAINball. Ive got scars to prove it :/.
35. Find out that girls, theyre trouble. Well not ALL LAH, but most of the hotter immature ones are -.-".
Im running out of ideas to blog, but yeah. A LOT of things have been acomplished, just summarising that time passes fast, today will never be the same as yesterday. Sweet memories or bitter, theyre still memories and you go through them.
However im still bitter over the fact today I got scolded for having lunch with my friends, then instead of going home straight like I told my mum, I decided to laze around in a park, have cendol then go for rugby.
Really really wish that I can get to relax in the sun in a warm park, enjoy the smell of grass and birdshit on the stained see-saws (Ewww) instead of being bugged to constantly focus on my studies.
My first term isn't even over and im getting this already, I cant wait when its near to SPM. I might be nagged to death if studying doesnt kill me first.
IF all this can happen now, I wonder how my college and working life is going to turn out.
I mean like after this college incident, not only I know that im definately not going to study cars again, but now im at a crossroad like most people. After SPM, what should I do?
I miss cars, but will I get a job in that field? I dont have qualifications sides SPM. (For now at least)
OR
I should go into mass-com and study on how to use my mouth to do the work for me!
Then theres ALSO
ENGLISH! I just realised I love writing/blogging/talking, its very intresting but I wished someone actually can read my nonsense and praise it. Im quite an attention whore if you didnt notice it already! Ahaha. Im not shy to admit it either.
Anyways, so thats the 3 im aiming for. But im so dur confused... Truth be told, havent been praying to God recently or seeking for his advice at all. I dont know why, but with all this rubbish around me, parents, studies, church people acting the way they shouldnt, im kinda disillusioned with praying and having faith in God I guess for my decisions.
I BELIVE he can help, dont get me wrong, but I havent made the first step. Ironic though, I can testify my butt off talking how God changed my parents minds to keep the Nissan after the accident.
Here comes more emo parts.
I cant seem to laugh as much as last time anymore, maybe its 'growing up', or its just I lack to see the humor in simple things anymore. Like my newfound classmates, they laugh REALLY easily. I think I was like that, then I got back from college.
Now I just seem so quiet and shut-in comapared to last time! (Or at least quiet-ER) Oh well. Time will tell whether my brain is deteriorating faster than normal, or growing up.
Its 12.30am, and im so damn sleepy. My first terms exams are DEFINATELY going to be an epic fail. I mean hey, I didnt study + dont expect me to suddenly catch on to stuff I dislike in 2 weeks! Science is really fun so I guess I made an effort to study it, whether the effort was wasted lets see eh?
Hmm... and FGT camp this Sunday. Lets hope I learn something there and have fun, im in a 'bleh' mood at the moment. Ponder about how time has affected you, have you been learning stuff or just being a loser, failing at everything by partying your youth away, going to CC's, and going to pay the price in the future? Now everythings very easy, but I've been to the 'future' and I dislike it a lot. Ponder over what I said, cause the post ends here. Im dead tired.
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